“Why did I take chemistry?”
That was the only statement in my mind after the paper.
I kinda wailed it out to everybody who could lend a listening ear, only… no one was listening, everyone was wailing their own thoughts about the paper… and strangely… all the thoughts were all transpositions of each other.
It isn’t even funny. (the lame joke of ‘Phua Chu Kang’ on the question paper looked back and laughed mockingly at us.)
My mind was drifting off as I approached the last page…
‘How much do I need to get an S for this paper?’
A summary of some of the responses we got. (though it may not be accurate as I wasn’t listening much due to my own wailing… it is something… like that)
Pris: “I don’t even care anymore. I don’t think I even did enough to pass”
Zhi Ying: “this is going to be interesting. I wonder how our class will do”
Me: “why did I take chemistry?”
Su-Ann: “exactally.”
Hong hu: “ahh…” *buries face in jacket
Shu Wei: “I don’t want to retain. The class is sure to break up.”
Teena : “3 Us already…”
Shan shan: “ I was at question 11 when there was 10 mins left!!”
Andrew: “See, I told you not to study.”
Abigail: “I am going to be retained”
Sheryl: “there wasn’t any time!!”
And ailin… who looked so calm, I am always amazed at how calm she is…we wound up talking about some of the questions… how her energy cycle was as slanted as mine….
Went for lunch with Priscilla and Sheryl where we spent about 1/3 of the time talking about chemistry paper (this is pretty amazing…) and the rest of the time talking about goals in life and all sorts of random stuff.
Like the Hong Kong drama says… “My goal in life is to find my goal in life.”
(It sounds more profound and funny in Chinese.)
Denial (that it is so difficult and I cant do it despite studying) – halfway through the paper
Bargaining (maybe if I just wrote some equation, I will get some method marks?)
Anger (the chemistry teachers are cruel. there wasn’t even enough time!) – after the paper
Acceptance (the fact that it is over and nothing can change) – after lunch with Sheryl and Priscilla, thank you.
What an experience.
And yes, the difficult paper is the perfect excuse to take time off to relax.
For a while at least.